Hello. My name is Michelle and I’m a backslider.
No, I’m not talking about the popular backsliden Christian debate.
I’m talking about the difficulty I have with committing to something on a permanent level? I’m not talking about my marriage or love of my family/friends, I’m talking about my inability to commit to everyday tasks. This was never an issue with me until I had kids. No, not even then. It was after I had 2 kids.
Want some examples….these are just a few of the many….
Working Out. I do great for weeks! Then I take a fe days off & I find myself back in an rut with weeks that go by with no activity level. I get discouraged, whine & complain about the lack of weight loss and then sulk.
Dieting. I do fantastic – writing everything down, measuring out my portion sizes, feeling great about it! Then I have an off day & I find myself munching on cookies, not drinking my water & just feeling blah. Uhhh hello?!
Blogging. I write a few posts, getting in the groove. Then there’s nothing…for a week or two. I feel uninspired and look at my blogging friends writing post after post, wondering just how they do it!
Preschool at Home. I made binders for each boy, set up a circle time area & the boys absolutely LOVE this time. We did it consistently for about 2 months and then I just stopped. I’m not even sure why, but this is just getting out of hand.
Gosh!! I am such a backslider!! My former TypeA hates me for it. I’m just not really sure what to do about it. Honestly, I think my solution will just have to be lists. Lots and lots of lists. A mindset that one/two days “off” of something isn’t a failure, I just need to start back up again & move on. Because if I don’t move on, that irritating voice in my head will just keep knocking me down.
And frankly….ain’t no body got time for that.