If you’re a follower of my blog, you know that I recently had twin girls; well, 8 weeks ago recently. 🙂 Now that I’m no longer pregnant or nursing the girls, I don’t have to worry about consuming the extra calories – but man that’s easier said than done. I swear, the hardest part of starting to lose weight is the actual STARTING part. Every day I complain about how I look & wanting to drop these extra 20lbs and all the while I just haven’t really done anything to actually LOSE it.
My fat pants won’t even zip all the way, leggings dig into the new tire around my waist & maternity pants just sag on me now that I don’t have my big belly to hold them up. Frankly I’m sick and tired of it all. I refuse to go buy a pair of big pants just so I can have an excuse to not diet/exercise. REFUSE I tell you, because if I go buy a pair of new pants that will cost me at least $30 and then probably another $20 to get hemmed since I’m all of 5-foot-nothing. (really i’m 4’11.5”) So, that’s it. I have no other option except to just START it.
My problem is I really have bad self control. I’m not even joking people – if there is candy in the house I won’t eat just one piece, I have to have like 3. I didn’t use to be this way until I was pregnant….then again before kids I could eat whatever I wanted and as long as I ran a few miles that week I would lose it. Oh to be in my early 20’s again! 30 is a whole new ball game when it comes to metabolism. 1.5 years ago when I started to get serious about losing weight after having Lucas I actually bought that Alli stuff to help me be accountable and it really worked! I knew I couldn’t consume more than 15g of fat in each meal so I was so very conscious of what I ate and I did lose it! But see there – I had a consequence that was immediate – eat more than 15g and you’ll be on the toilet. Right now if I eat a few pieces of candy I may regret it but I don’t have an immediate consequence – I just enjoy it and then think I shouldn’t have eaten it.
SOOO…with that all that being said, I’m posting this on here to keep myself accountable. I can’t believe I’m really putting up a picture of myself but if I don’t do it, I won’t have anything really pushing me. My plan is to just eat smaller portions and more “clean” while going out for walks / jogs at least 3 times a week. I still can’t do any ab work outs aside from some stuff the physio showed me (i have terrible muscle separation after the girls – having to wear a girdle the majority of the day) but the gap is only about 2 fingers wide now so that’s an improvement from the 3 it was before!
If you have any tips for me – meal/diet/exercise plans I’d love to hear it! But please be mindful – I don’t have 2hrs a day at the gym to whip myself back into shape 😉